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A Retrospective of My Past

Every once in awhile an event will pop up that brings forth memories, emotions and deep thought that you weren't actually expecting..what you were expecting was to go to the event, see old friends, have a few drinks and a whole lot of fun...and this past weekend I did all of the above...but something unexpected has stayed with me for the past 3 is an awakening, of my past, both in high school and even before .We don't often look so far back for many reasons...but for me, seeing some friends from well over 50 years ago, sharing those stories, remembering times and events of a more distant time...has got me thinking. Those of you who know me well, know that when something important to me,gets into my head and heart, it has to come out.  That's why I write..this is my story, for me, my family and for all of you who might walk a similar path. So my 50th class reunion brought me home, not only to my alma mater but to my youth.

Salem, a small city on the north shore of Massachusetts Bay has a rich history..With it's safe harbor, abundant forests and fields, it attracted many settlers from Europe.  Perhaps though, it was most noted for is witchcraft hysteria.  The city is divided into what we called Wards...each ward was determined by where you lived, each having their own elementary school, park program and some elected officials, as well as a grocery store and gas station.  Elementary school was 1-5 in Ward 2, which is where I grew up...then we moved and merged a few wards together for grammar school..grades 7, 8, 9 and finally all wards gathered together for high school. It wasn't just about the schools either. The choice of which ward you lived in was determined by the financial resources of your family.  Ward 2 was a working class neighborhood.  Economics were very poor where I lived..but that really didn't bother me as a young girl..because we were all in the same "boat"...later when I got to high school I was more able to see the impact. 

I loved school, all of it.  Each September I loved getting my pencils and notebooks ready, as well as having new school shoes and a special "back to school outfit"..School was were I learned to gather my skills for a job after graduating.  I made friends easily amongst my peers for the most part, but not all who walked those hallowed halls were nice to me and truth be told I was not always nice to some others..they were tough times, hard times. I was not able to participate in after school programs because I had to work.  I missed being able to do that.  I think friends are more lasting and bonding happens easier within those after school groups. Nevertheless I had my to speak and to this day one of my very best friends was my friend in high school...and she wasn't from my ward.  I was fortunate as I made my way through those 4 years to build some lovely friendships..we had the same home room for 4 years, so I always sat between the same two people every day...we had lunch tables where we gathered and most often with the same most ways it was a wonderful time..and it still holds so many special memories for me..

The reunion committee that planned this event did a fantastic job...oh my, I can't say enough good things about them and the program that they put together for us to make this 50th event so of which was a visit to our old high school, which is now the middle school and you can imagine after 50 years that a lot of changes have taken place..can you believe the entire school is air-conditioned, yes we had that was called "open the window"..but in the restoration and modernization, they did keep a few of the original classrooms and the hallways that we walked and the music room and such. This was the high school classroom of my day..Oh my gosh that chalk board looks so small and yet it seemed huge and daunting way back name started with I was up front in the first row...we all looked at this set-up in every room we traveled brought back so many memories...

The front hallway, where you would enter first thing in the morning..principals desk still to the left of the door. I think my chair is still sitting outside the office.  These are halls I walked for 4 years, original.  It is sort of funny how 50 years melts away like a popsicle on a hot day, it was like I was there again, finding my locker and putting my books away...greeting my friends or on a late day, running (not allowed) to my home room. It goes on, I had a favorite window I would look out, still there, as I waited and watched for Mary to come up the steps...and we would go to class together..This tour was a wonderful gift that the committee offered stepping back into a time capsule..

At the top of this page is my 1963 Ford Falcon marked the spots this past weekend for classmates to know which door to go in at all the events...a flash back to the cars of those days...this's red, is the exact same car I had in high school...mine was black..same year, same everything.  Actually the top photo in black and white reminds me of the original.  I came across this one owner car in 2000.  My younger brother knew how much I loved my car and when he saw this one, he immediately called me to come and see it..and of course I bought it...shortly after the purchase my brother passed I consider this his last gift to me and what a beauty she is...Meet Stellar..a perfect reminder of my past.

The lovely and gracious Hawthrone Hotel..where the main event of the reunion was held.  It was the perfect place for us. Very grand, it's in the center of the city.  The food is just wonderful and it's a place that most of us growing up could absolutely not afford to enter..It was really bittersweet for me..because you see, I passed that hotel every day walking home from school.  Now I'm thinking that my walk was somewhere in the vicinity of 2 miles each by the time I had to go "potty"...the Hawthrone was a good stopping spot before continuing on...well, the staff there didn't think so.  I can't tell you how many times I got tossed out of that when we went this time and actually stayed over...I felt kind of proud that no longer could I get tossed out...LOL


Saturday night, the room was full, 105 classmates and 67 guests...wonderful speakers to remind us of where we had been, and where we should be going.  These speakers had a huge impact on me and two of them, in particular, got me on this thinking path that I am now was (Dr.) Paul Caron who gave a speech on growing up in Salem..and then alluded to life after retirement...that we can go on and make new careers if we choose..he has since written Children's books...but the impact from him came before he started his speech..You see Paul has never attended a reunion before...and so right from the start he apologized to the class for all the hugs he had missed, all the handshakes, for missing out on all the stories and the 50th reunion he realized what the value was in gathering every 5 was humbling to hear him voice the importance of why we gather as a group and it was heartfelt to hear that he now gets it...thank you Paul for recognizing and acknowledging your revelation.

And then there was Marlene Winokur Heiser..Salutatorian of our class...she did a retrospective of her speech 50 years ago, titled Threshold of Life...Youth.  After her speech I sought Marlene out, not because we had traveled the halls of Salem High School together, we didn't.  She was in the classical course, I was in the commercial course.  I did not seek her because of either of her speeches, although both were brilliant.  I went to find her because long before high school she was a friend and I had not seen her all these many years.  We both lived on Bridge St...both in Ward 2 and we went to elementary school together...It was a fleeting friendship and I remember going to her house for dinner. We talked about those days..and how even before high school our friendships matter, in a sense laying a foundation for what we might find to value in others along our path of life.  I cared about her, even now, wanting to know about her family and how she was doing.  She was a stabling force for me way back when and she probably never knew that.  In the same sense, when she knew she would be coming to this reunion, she also knew that she would seek me out...and I thank her for remembering our time together also... 

Just so you know, I also sought out my boy friends...LOl...really I am blessed to have so many friends of so many persuasion. These guys did not grow up on Bridge St...but every once in awhile we would cross the line into another Ward...Charming and handsome as ever...they make me laugh..such a gift of sharing they provide..and it was easy for me to meet boys...I had three brothers...


I had to include this Bridge St. friends from forever ago, again first time seeing them in many, many years..and the connections goes deep.  We were all from the lower end of Bridge St...tough section sometimes but fiercy loyal...these girls are sisters, their Mom and my Mom were friends and even further back than that, our Grandmothers were cars for the woman in those days...just a club called the Ward Two Social Club where the ladies dressed up and played many memories and people remembered and stories told.  Some good and funny and some tragic and sad.  All a part of my growing up years...50 years and beyond.


So as I sat for several days and thought about this milestone in my life...I was able to make sense of the times I grew up in. They were not easy on Bridge St...but I look to what has helped heal me and make me who I am today...and it comes down to one word...Friendship.  In the good times, bad times, tough times and joyous was all about friends.. They came into my life when I needed them, some left when our needs were met.  Others have stayed with me for more than 50 years..I learned that as we change and grow into our authentic selves...if we look back, we realize that each person that we spent time with in friendship is a part of who we are.  So like Paul, I owe you all a big thank you...My lower Bridge St. friends, my upper Bridge St. friends, my high school friends and all those that I am now friends with for attending every single reunion...our lives blend even to this day.

Sometimes it's good to look shake the shame and regrets and to  realize just how fortunate we are and were. I now realize that my life  was a journey all these many years. A journey I was meant to be on with all of you. We connect with what matters in some way and it  impacts who we are today. Lastly  to those 59 school mates that are no longer with us..."We Remember." I would urge each of you, when the time comes for your reunions, whatever year, remember how Paul felt for missing so many of his and'll be glad you did...true story....

The Fifties

by Barbara Crooker

We spent those stifling endless summer afternoons
on hot front porches, cutting paper dolls from Sears
catalogs, making up our own ideal families
complete with large appliances
and an all-occasion wardrobe with fold-down
paper tabs. Sometimes we left crayons
on the cement landing, just to watch them melt.
We followed the shade around the house.
Time was a jarful of pennies, too hot
to spend, stretching long and sticky,
a brick of Bonomo's Turkish Taffy.
Tomorrow'd be more of the same,
ending with softball or kickball,
then hide and seek in the mosquitoey dark.
Fireflies, like connect-the-dots or find-the-hidden-
words, rose and glowed, winked on and off,
their cool fires coded signals
of longing and love
that we would one day
learn to speak.

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How absolutely wonderful Cheryl! I truly enjoyed reading this.

August 13, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterLiz Thomas

Thank you Liz...thank you also for always being here...and for becoming a friend I just haven't met yet...

August 13, 2014 | Unregistered Commentercheryl c.

Cheryl thanks for sharing your reunion and showing me a part of your life so moving..

August 14, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterViv

Wonderful post, Cheryl! You captured our memories so well. It was great seeing you at the reunion and I very much enjoyed spending time with you Friday evening and chatting. Take care and I'll definitely see you in two years!

August 14, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterTerri DuLong

Thanks was a beautiful weekend and I just wanted to share with everyone how important it is to have friends in your life...even friends we haven't met yet...xoxo

August 14, 2014 | Registered CommenterCheryl Crotty

Good article, wish I had gone to my 50th.

August 15, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterJim Crotty

We'll go to your next one should have listened to me before...xoxo

August 15, 2014 | Registered CommenterCheryl Crotty

"It is sort of funny how 50 years melts away like a popsicle on a hot day." What a brilliant line and how well it sums up your trip back in time. I'm so glad you wote this and shared it because your reflections contain so much wisdom..and also so much humour...and joy. I love all the details -- the story of the wards, the friends, the special car! Such an wonderful insight into you and your life and the way you see it all. I could go on and on, but I just want to say thanks. It encourages me to reflect back on those days as well.

August 16, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterSherry G.

Like your posts Sherry I always look forward to your visits...thank you for understanding and seeing where I am trying to go with my words and photo's...The 50's and 60's were tough times and so many days sadness would overwhelm me because of our circumstances growing up...but now, I can see the why and the how and I moved on to a better life so many years ago..and of course compared to todays standards...I think in some ways we were more fortunate...because we really could rely on our friends and person...thank you for being a part of my new friendships here in the blogging world..your special and like all the other have been very helpful and supportive...I appreciate these new friendships in these new times...LOL xoxo

August 16, 2014 | Registered CommenterCheryl Crotty

Hello my friend!! I read this the day you posted it...such a moving, and thoughtful post! You recollected so many memories from your younger days, and moved on into the current time with ease. My 50th is coming up next summer and I have mixed emotions about going, although my husband is already talking about it. Even then, I was so introverted, I didn't have many close friendships, only one from school. Many acquaintances though. Facebook has helped connect with several others now. The most interesting part is the "wards" you lived in...reminds me of the Wahlbergers story....lots of kids, and very little money, with happy times. I'm happy to hear you enjoyed the reconnection, and realize how fortunate we are now. It's healthy to move on from what we disliked, or felt uncomfortable with in those days. I will soak in your wise words...hoping to feel more comfortable about attending mine next year. xxoo

August 17, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterBeverly

Beverly you are such a sweet friend. Thank you for reading and writing. I think we all take some baggage with us when we enter a space that wasn't always comfortable for us. For new, life rough but I knew many people were in the same boat. We all did the best we could. The 50th is so precious because we have finally reached an age when reflection is easier to deal with. I was so happy to re-new and let go finally of all the stuff that bogged me down back then. You come to a realization that through-out life everyone is dealing with something. If you have a willing husband I would say go and enjoy. Your more outgoing than you think. You might even surprise yourself and become reacquainted with some like minded friends. Thanks always for your support.

August 17, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterCheryl

Must of been fun for you catching up with all those people from the past. You sure have your arms wrapped around a handsome devil.

August 18, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterH.S

P.S '64? Phew! I wasn't even in diapers yet :) Must of been fun for you catching up with all those people from the past. You sure have your arms wrapped around a handsome devil.

August 18, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterH.S

H.S. So much fun but bittersweet in so many days. Fifty years contains a lot of reflecting. Aw yes, my lost love, tall, dark and handsome and if that isn't enough he is the nicest guy ever. We go way back to grammar school...and he has the loveliest wife. Hugs are good though.

August 18, 2014 | Unregistered CommenterCheryl

Thank you Cheryl, well said. 💕

April 6, 2019 | Unregistered CommenterAlma Pretanik Steele

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